So, yeah, this is the first type of thing I've found like this to talk to people about this, its kinda cool to be able to do talk about it without being 'nasty' or whatever. I haven't told anybody but my boyfriend, no family or anything! How do you actually face reality and accept it cuz I don't believe 'this' will be going anywhere anytime soon?! I was just doing a birth control study and got back my pap smear results, found out and FREAKED OUT! I think I almost ran off the road 3 times on my way home from the office! But I havent even tried to go to the doctor about this...I went into the ghetto hospital and stood in line for like 2 minutes and walked out, freaking out once again! BUT HOW DO YOU JUST DEAL WITH IT? Since we found out, my boyfriend (of about almost 2 yrs.) has been kinda weirded out. I mean DUH, its kinda hard to deal with but we've been through a lot (before this) and always fix it, but its becoming such B.S. that i really don't know if I can deal with this crap with him, but I think about breaking up, but then I also think...who would want to be with me now!?! THIS SUCKS! Any suggestions....